When this is over, when things are better. When the world is done regenerating and ready for us to be in it with our amended ways, when the humanity has learned its lesson and adapted to the healthy ways. I want to go on a road trip. Alone or with someone. I want to never again miss a heartbeat. I want to never again miss a sunrise. I want to explore all the sunflower fields. Walk amongst wild strawberries with a Polaroid in my hands. I say Polaroid because i want to capture these moments on mediums i can later feel with my fingertips. I want to run along side a lake and chase fod in a barn. I never again want to miss marvelling over a butterfly or a firefly or the stars or a lady bug or a bumble bee because isolation and time away from nature made me realise just how God damn precious all these are. I also want to buy souvenirs. Spend less on clothes and more on tickets. Choose trains over airplanes. Writing over sleeping. Sky gazing over laptop screens. I want to make every moment count as it is. With my five senses. My own very senses. Memorise how foreign places smelled. Memorise how mornings in the train sounded. Soak in through the eyes how the strawberry fields were red but never too much red. Give my tastebuds the memory of how tea tasted different city to city. Engrave the touch of everything, my hands could feel, into my fingertips. So much so that when its time finally go i can say 'I seeked my great perhaps every moment i was alive'